i'm hardcore...now hold my knitting while i kick your ass!

what i am now is what i was then...

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 05:15:54 GMT

ever feel like everything is just wrong? i'm starting to think it's silly to hold onto certain things...because maybe that just makes it harder to deal w/ the now...then again, maybe the only thing getting me through the now, is the thought that something better is on it's way...i'm just sick of being unhappy...i'm sick of being bored...i'm sick of never learning or growing...i'm sick of stressing...and being frustrated...i'm sick of just being unhappy...maybe what i'm about to do will help get the ball rolling...i hope so...cause i'm running out of ideas...that's it...

see a heart worth loving...

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 21:48:57 GMT

i'm not in a good state right now..i just put my entire paycheck into the bank...and with the money i already had in the account, it wasn't enough to pay my rent...so, now i'm borrowing money from my mom...which wouldn't be so bad, except that she's already paying for my lights and gas...i just feel so bad borrowing money from my parents...it's like, i wanted this apartment...and now, i can't afford it...and they are trying to save back money for their new house...and i'm taking that from them...and i just hate it...and everywhere i have applied hasn't called me back...why is it that there are so many places in kansas city that are hiring...but no one will give you a job? i'm not the only one who's having this problem...and i'm stressing because right now, i should be saving for my trip to england...but i can't even do that...i'm beyond broke...and it's not fair...there is so much i need to do...and i can't...because life is just shit for me...and the one thing that could make me happy, is the one thing i'll never get...i just want to move to england...but that'll never happen at the rate i'm going...and i've lost my tax stuff...i know it's here somewhere...but i have no idea where...i'm hoping i'll get a good amount back from taxes...i'm gonna stash it back for england....ok..i guess i'm done now...

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 19:14:12 GMT

You Are A: Monkey!

Monkeys are intelligent and agile, well-adapted for jungle life as they swing happily from tree to tree. As a monkey, you are a social animal who is quick to learn new things, loves to climb and is known to show off. A monkey's tiny primate features are irresistable, as is her gregarious personality!

You were almost a: Parakeet or a Puppy
You are least like a: Chipmunk or a Bunny Discover What Cute Animal You Are!

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 04:12:34 GMT

Put your iPod/MP3 player on shuffle and use the songs you get to answer the following questions:(ok, i don't have an ipod...but i do have a playlist on my computer...so lets see how this goes...

What do you think of me, iPod?
we didn't do it...teagan and sarah

Will I have a happy life?
you're a rebel...dropkick murphys

What do my friends really think of me?
one minute man-missy elliot

Do people secretly lust after me?
don't speak-no doubt

How can I make myself happy?
writing on the walls-le tigre

What should I do with my life?
ready to run-dixie chicks...interesting

Why must life be so full of pain?
don't mug yourself-the streets

How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
nanny nanny boo boo

Will I ever have children?
drop it like it's hot-snoop dog

Will I die happy?
wannabe-spice girls

Can you give me some advice?
don't fear the reaper-blue oyster cult...ok, what the crap is that implying?!?!?!?!?

Do you know where your children are?
deceptacon-le tigre

What do you think happiness is?
punker plus-le tigre

What's your favourite fetish?
don't phunk with my heart-black eyed peas

hmmm...

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 19:51:30 GMT

it really pisses me off when people think they have any fucking clue what i'm talking about when they don't...don't tell me that just because you work at an animal rescue place, that you have any fucking clue about animal torture...because you don't...you only see the aftermath...you don't see what really happened to them...you don't fucking see men actually cutting the skin off a live, fully conscous animal...you don't see the men holding the animal above their head and slamming it into the ground...and laughing the whole time the animals suffer...when you have seen that for yourself, then maybe you will have a small clue as to why i'm not mentally stable anymore...but until then, don't tell me you know what i'm talking about...because you have no fucking clue...and be thankful that you've never seen it...because it haunts you...it won't go away...and yes, i almost starting cutting myself to stop the pain...and yes, i completly know why people cut...it makes perfect sense once you've been through something so awful...and yes, i would give just about anything to take back what i've seen...but then again...maybe i was supposed to see it...maybe i saw it for a reason...i just wish i knew what it was...and i wish i could get my sanity back...and i wish people would actually comment sometimes..because everybody needs to know someone cares sometimes...

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 21:14:18 GMT

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual. (yes, this actually happened)

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

repost if you think homophobia is wrong

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 12:17:28 GMT

HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE!!!! i won't be seen for a few days...

stole this from green queen

Wed, 25 May 2005 21:03:00 GMT

count how many [x]es you have. If you've seen more than 70 movies, you are a ~*~ Movie Whore ~*~. post the score of how many movies you've seen in the subject line.

use an LJ-cut since you've got at least one LJ-friend who doesn't really want to see an ungodly number of movies snaking its way down the computer monitor. (right now, the list is at about 370 movies)

(optional) question your friend's taste in movies.

Napoleon Dynamite (x)
Saw
White Noise
White Oleander (x)
Anger Management
50 First Dates
Friday The 13th
Scream [x]
Scream 2 [x]
Scream 3 [x]
Scary Movie [x]
Scary Movie [x]
Scary Movie [x]
American Pie [x]
American Pie 2 [x]
American Wedding [x]
Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone [x]
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets [x]
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban [x]
Resident Evil (x)
Resident Evil: Apocalypse
The Wedding Singer [x]
Little Black Book
The Village
Donnie Darko [x]
Lilo & Stitch [x]
Finding Nemo [x]
Finding Neverland
13 Ghosts (x)
Signs [x]
The Grinch [x]
The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (x)
White Chicks
The Butterfly Effect (x)
13 going on 30
I, Robot
Dodgeball
Universal Soldier (x)
A Series Of Unfortunate Events
Along Came A Spider
Deep Impact [x]
Kingpin (x)
Never Been Kissed [x]
Meet The Parents [x]
Meet The Fockers
Eight Crazy Nights
A Cinderella Story
The Terminal
The Lizzie McGuire Movie [x]
Passport to Paris
Dumb & Dumber [x]
Dumb & Dumberer
Final Destination
Final Destination 2
Halloween [x]
Halloween 2 [x]
Halloween 3 (x)
Halloween 4 (x)
Halloween 5 (x)
H20 [x]
Halloween: the Resurrection (x)
The Ring [x]
The Ring 2
Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
Practical Magic [x]
Chicago [x]
Ghost Ship (x)
From Hell (x)
Team America: World Police
Hellboy
Secret Window
I Am Sam
The Whole Nine Yards
The Day After Tomorrow [x]
Child's Play [x]
Bride of Chucky
10 Things I Hate About You [x]
Just Married (x)
Gothika (x)
A Nightmare on Elm Street
Sixteen Candles [x]
Bad Boys 2
Joy Ride (x)
Seven
Ocean's Eleven [x]
Ocean's Twelve
Identity
Lone Star
Bedazzled [x]
Predator
Predator II
Independence Day [x]
Cujo (x)
A Bronx Tale
Darkness Falls (x)
Christine
ET [x]
Children of the Corn [x]
My Boss' Daughter
Maid in Manhattan (x)
Frailty
How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
She's All That (x)
Calendar Girls (x)
Sideways
Mars Attacks [x]
Event Horizon
Ever After [x]
Forrest Gump [x]
Big Trouble in Little China
X-Men [x]
X-Men 2 [x]
Jeepers Creepers [x]
Jeepers Creepers 2
Catch Me If You Can (x)
The Others (x)
Freaky Friday [x]
Reign of Fire
Man on Fire
Braveheart [x]
Cruel Intentions [x]
The Hot Chick [x]
Swimfan [x]
Miracle
Friday Night Lights
Old School (x)
Ray
The Notebook
K-Pax
Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring [x]
Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers [x]
Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King [x]
A Walk to Remember (x)
Sweet Home Alabama (x)
Moulin Rouge [x]
Boogeyman
Hitch
The Fifth Element [x]
Star Wars episode I: The Phantom Menance [x]
Star Wars episode II: Attack Of The Clones [x]
Star Wars episde III: Revenge of the Sith [x]
Star Wars episode IV: A New Hope [x]
Star Wars episode V: The Empire Strikes Back [x]
Star Wars episode VI: Return Of The Jedi [x]
Troop Beverly Hills
Swimming with Sharks
Trainspotting
People Under the Stairs
Blue Velvet
The Sound of Music [x]
Parent Trap [x]
The Burbs (x)
SLC Punk
Meet Joe Black [x]
Wild Things
A Clockwork Orange
The Order
Spiderman [x]
Spiderman 2
Amelie
Mean Girls
Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen (x)
Shrek [x]
Shrek 2
The Incredibles
Collateral
The Fast & The Furious [x]
2 Fast 2 Furious (x)
Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
Closer
The Sixth Sense [x]
a.i. - Artificial Intelligence [x]
Love Actually [x]
The Sweetest Thing (x)
Shutter
Ella Enchanted
The Princess Diaries [x]
The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
The Breakfast Club [x]
October Sky
Remember the Titans
Titanic [x]
Boondock Saints
American History X [x]
Fight Club
Heavenly Creatures
Stealing Beauty
Like Water For Chocolate
Powwow Highway
Secretary
But I'm A Cheerleader
I <3 Huckabees
Ripley's Game
Coffee And Cigarettes
Taxi Driver
Silence Of The Lambs [x]
The Exorcist [x]
If Lucy Fell
Lady Jane
When Harry met Sally [x]
Me, Myself & Irene [x]
Kung Fu Hustle
Sin City
Labyrinth
Much Ado About Nothing
The Cowboy Way
Paulie
Blazing Saddles
Galaxy Quest [x]
Guildenstern and Rosencrantz are Dead
Citizen Kane
You Can Count on Me
Young Frankenstein
Raiders of the Lost Ark [x]
Starman
St. Elmos Fire
Coyote Ugly [x]
The Other Sister [x]
Rainman
Little Shop of Horrors
Chasing Amy
House of Sand and Fog
Mildred Pierce
The Big Lebowski
Mallrats
Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
The Goonies
Starsky & Hutch
Saved! [x]
The Upside of Anger
Sweet Sweetback's Baadasssss Song
The Cat's Meow
The Rutles
Waking Ned Devine
Pirates of the Caribbean [x]
Little Women [x]
Huck Finn [x]
National Treasure
O Brother Where Art Thou?
Dick
Howard the Duck
Garden State [x]
Hero (x)
Spinal Tap (x)
Almost Famous
Before Sunrise
Before Sunset
Troy [x]
Gone With The Wind
Chocolat
Gentlemen Prefer Blondes
Now and Then [x]
Romeo and Juliet [x]
Ferris Bueller's Day Off [x]
Grease [x]
Guess Who's Coming to Dinner?
Mr. North
The African Queen
The Wizard of Oz [x]
Country Girl
The Philadelphia Story
Bringing Up Baby
The Aviator
An Affair To Remember
Sabrina
Holiday
Conspiracy Theory
Stage Door
Rigoletto
White Christmas [x]
Who Framed Roger Rabbit? [x]
The Wedding Planner (x)
Arsenic and Old Lace
A Day at the Races
Willy Wonka & The Chocolate Factory [x]
Bend it Like Beckham [x]
A Beautiful Mind
Urban Legend
Dead Poet's Society
Kill Bill vol. 1
Kill Bill vol. 2
The Royal Tenenbaums
The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou
American Beauty
A Chorus Line
Iron Jawed Angels
Phantom of the Opera
A League of Their Own [x]
Stuart Little
Notting Hill
A Lot Like Love
Along Came Polly (x)
Billy Madison [x]
Happy Gilmore [x]
Igby Goes Down
Sid and Nancy
Bruce Almighty
The Usual Suspects
Chances Are
SWAT
House of Wax
Master and Commander: The Far Side of the World
Gladiator [x]
Gosford Park
The Jacket
Red Dragon
Hannibal
Elizabeth
Quills
Velvet Goldmine
Chuck and Buck
Titus
The Pillow Book
Queen Margot
Sex, Lies and Videotape
His Girl Friday
Persuasion
Party Girl
Top Hat
Singing in the Rain
Spirited Away
House of Flying Daggers
Goodbye Lenin
Willow [x]
Battle Royale
Dude, Where's My Car? [x]
Drop Dead Gorgeous [x]
Josie and the Pussycats [x]
Romancing the Stone
Mystery Men
Bound
Crossroads (x)
Dawn Of The Dead
Shaun Of The Dead
The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy
Gattaca
Varsity Blues [x]
The Manchurian Candidate
Out of Sight
Three Kings
Intolerable Cruelty
On Golden Pond
The Goodbye Girl
Mr. Holland’s Opus [x]
Six Weeks
Bring it On [x]
Clerks
Latter Days
View from the Top [x]
Empire Records [x]
Prince of Darkness
I'm Gonna git you Sucka
Dune
Beautiful Thing
Defying Gravity
Footloose (x)
School of Rock [x]
As Good as it Gets
Fargo
Pulp Fiction
Camille
Super Troopers
Slipstream
Better Off Dead
The Right Stuff
Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves [x]
House On Haunted Hill [x]
Quigley Down Under
The Grudge
The Princess Bride [x]
Deathtrap
The Crow [x]
Terminator 2: Judgement Day [x]
Swordfish
The Prince and Me
Soldier's Girl
Amadeus
The Man from Snowy River
Free Willy [x]
Ghandi
Chariots of Fire

that makes 153...not bad

i guess i'll update...with completly pointless stuff...

Sat, 21 May 2005 19:42:56 GMT

Which Band Should You Be In? by couplandesque
Your Name
Band Name	The Get Up Kids
Role	Vocalist
Trademark	Mental Problems
Love Interest	The Vocalist

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What ranDOM movie quote are you? by merenwen_ruby
Name
Birthday
Choose One
The Quote	"You found me."-Merry(ROTK)

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Generate your Anime Style by Jena-su
Name:
Hair:	In a style so odd, it defies all laws of physics.
Clothes:	Simple, comfortable, everyday clothes.
Powers:	Light magic
Special Features:	Random tattoo(s)
Sidekick:	Small fluffy animal that talks...usually too much.
Attitude:	Extremely smart and cheerful, maybe with a big brother/sister complex.
Weapon:	Shuriken

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What Does Your Inner Anime Character Look Like? (For Girls) by Rose Lover
User Name
Age
Height
Fav. Colors
Fav. Anime Show
What you look like
Role	Villain

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the soundtrack to your life by cuteliz34
name
opening credits	i miss you by blink 182
love song	dont worry ill catch you by the get up kids
heart break song	konstantine by something corporate
I hate you song	goodbye to you by the used
everythings ok song	float on by modest mouse
closing credits	maps by the yeah yeah yeahs

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Which Johnny Depp character do you belong with? by cerulean_dreams
UserName
Age
You fall in love with
You meet	on a rollercoaster in CP
His friends think	You guys are perfect together
Your friends think	you belong together
You will	screw every night

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Which Harry Potter Guy Will Knock You Up? by jazzedsoprano
Name/Username
Age
House
The Father	Draco Malfoy
How/Why it happens	He wanted an Heir

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Angel Style by greymentality

Name/Username

First Impression from Others

Others are overwhelmed by your beauty

Your Core

Isolated.You fear love.Though you are love itself.

Potential to Stray from the Light: 67%

Your Weakness

Lovely mortals in torment. ANY torment.

Your Strength

You ride Binky, the Pale horse. :)

Your Wings

White. Piercingly white and pure

Your Focus

Love

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Your Dream Vampire Boyfriend(Girls only) by Cainesgirl101
Nickname
Zodiac sign
Your dream vampire-guy	Ice blue eyes, and short semi curly blonde hair. Dark cloak and described as memorizing.
How you met	You found him stalking his prey(your best friend) and talked him out of it, and to take some of yours instead.
The first thing you said to him	Um....hi...
Where you two ended up	He visits you regularly for a small amount of blood, and to spend some time with you.
His favorite thing to do to you	He loves to lay in bed with you, hugging you, and whispering tales of his adventures in your ear.
Will you end up as a vampire	Yep- eternity with him at your side.

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What Type Of Goddess Are You?::Female Anime Pics:: by angel_drifter
Name/Username:
Favorite Place:
Astrological Sign:
What You Look Like:
What Type Of Goddess Are You:	Goddess of Water

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just thought this was funny...

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 20:45:47 GMT

To pick up dominic: Seriously honey - sex is like pizza. Even if it's bad it's still pretty darn good.

Get your own Magic Pick Up Line

DO NOT READ!

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 22:31:03 GMT

1. Make an LJ-cut post with "DO NOT READ" as the text.
2. Do not select a 'mood' for this post.
3. If anyone clicks the cut, they are to comment and admit to doing so.
4. Anyone who reads this also has to do the same in THEIR journal, thus continuing the neverending madness.

update...

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 22:27:04 GMT

so, i guess it's time to update...although i'm sure anything i say on here, you've already read, on xanga or myspace...oh well...i might be moving down to springfield w/ nicky! i'm really excited if i get to. but i need a car first...so if anyone knows how to make money like pronto, w/o being a hooker, or selling drugs...well, let's just say, if you know a LEGAL way to make money quick, let me know...cause my job just doesn't pay enough.um...let's see what else is new...um...i finished my scarf! yeah! i'm very happy about that...i'm gonna start my brother's scarf tonight...cause i'm sure he wants it soon...it's been like two or three weeks since he asked me for one...opps...oh well...ok, i think i'm done for now...bye!

the first single...

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 21:29:21 GMT

oh man, i'm about to burst! today, at my work, they are having a HUGE rumage sale...guess what i bought...no, your wrong...but good guess...i bought a trash bag full of yarn...for $3!!!!!!!! can you believe that?! $3!!! for a huge bag of yarn...and, i also got this cute red purse for free...it's kinda old lady-ish, but in a really cute way...anywho...nicky, i'm so bummed about the format...but, they are coming on the 18th and then, they'll be back on nov. 11! so, if you are planning a trip down either times, we need to go! and i was gonna ask you, are you still gonna get a tat w/ me when you come home? and is tiara coming? and what exactly is the fashion design thingy we're going to? and...and...um...i can't think of anything else to type...OH!!! LOST IS TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! dom monaghan...yummy!!! lol...so, i'm out now!

how?...

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 00:24:46 GMT

i'm so unbelievably pissed right now...get this...today, basically, trina and i did all the work...cause pam had to do all the cooking for 2marow...(don't ask.) so, today, here's how my day went...came in, turned on lights and dishwasher...put on apron and hairnet...loaded/ran dishes...put covers on trays...did laundry...put water in steam table...turned on steam table...put away all dishes/silverware...proceeded to make: tuna macaroni salad, baked chicken, veal, baked potatoes, cottage cheese, fruit bowls, and something else that i can't remeber now...put crackers in pan to serve...set tables...got ice...made tea and water...served...ate...cleaned up...got ready for 2marow...what did trina do?....good question...made no-bake cookies, and celery sticks filled w/ cheese...served...helped clean up...and prepare for 2marow...yeah...it took her from 8:30-11:45 to make NO-BAKE cookies, and celery sticks w/ cheese in them!!!!!!!!!!!! and it was only for like 40 people! yeah, after the huge thing that's going on 2marow, i'm talking to my boss about this...it's fucking rediculis that i'm doing all the fucking work in that place....then, i ran home and changed, and called my dad's work..that receptionist job is open again, so i'm having them pull my application...maybe i'll get hired there...40 hours a week, benifits....you know the drill..then i went to my mom's computer class for her cause she had to go to the doctors...crazy day...oh, and then i went over to my parents house and cooked dinner, cause my mom hurt her leg really bad, so she can't stand on it too long, and my dad burns food...so, now i'm here, still at my parent's...checking email and such...blah...i'm done now...

first day of october...

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 21:10:57 GMT

man, today just rocks...it's the first day of october.(thank you limbeck!) and it's kinda dark, and semi-rainy...and i got some clothes at old navy...and i'm hungry...and blah blah blah...that's all i got right now...

bottom of a bottle...

Thu, 30 Sep 2004 21:41:10 GMT

um...i just felt i needed a post, since i haven't posted in FOREVER! ...so, yeah, um...work is ok...but there is a job opening at my dad's work for a receptionist...so i'm gonna re-apply there...nolan is now really starting to talk..and he's about to start crawling...he is the cutest thing i've ever seen...watched lost...dom monaghan is the hottest british drug addict bass player i've ever seen...and i love his shoes...and i've just decided that the lead singer for smile empty soul is hot...and i'm not sure why...um...i have to pee...thank you for your time...oh, and nicky, when is the format concert? where? and how much? i'm there!!! and i'm getting pics!!! hehehe

honk and wave...

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 20:52:09 GMT

wow...last night was so amazing...and i'm sad to report that i found out this morning that patrick is engaged! damnit!!! so anywho...last night...patrick loved my shirt...so did the other guys...i talked to them...i got a picture w/ them...went to perkins...laughed about the patrick love making me high...looked at the door every 5 minutes to see if patrick was gonna walk through it...he didn't...i like chips and salsa with my sandwhich and soda...nicky, you rock so much...i'm so glad we went last night...that was awsome! i can't wait till they come back...bye now!

i've got a date w/ the night!

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 20:37:56 GMT

1. First Name: kristin

2. Were you named after anyone? my middle name was my grandmother's

3. Do you wish on stars? once in a while.

4. Which finger is your favorite? the one thats easiest to flip at the moment.

5. When did you last cry? last weekend

6. Do you like your handwriting? i don't hate it...

7. What's your favorite lunchmeat? turkey

8. Any bad habits?too many to count
9. What's in your CD player right now? the yeah yeah yeahs

10. Do you believe in soul mates? yes

11. Are you a daredevil? not really

12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to
tell? yup

13. Do looks matter? sadly yes...but i'm hot, so it doesn't count against me!!!

14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded
absolutely stupid? i'm sure i have...

15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of
the rainbow? yes, but the gold will disappear in a matter of hours..so it doesn't matter...

16 Do fish have feelings? you tell me, have you ever seen them being cleaned while still alive? what some people will do to other living things is unbelievable

17. Are you trendy? hello, i was almost a fashion design major!

18. how do you release anger? yell of course...sometimes throw things...whatever gets the job done...

19. Where is your second home? um...i guess the place i live now...or england...

20. Do you trust others easily? Never! No one can be trusted.

21. What was your favorite toy as a child? barbies and race cars

22. What class in school did you think was totally
useless? anything that was too structured, or didn't allow me to be creative.

23. Do have a journal? yeah, a lj, and two xangas...

24. Do you use sarcasm? WHAT?! i would never!

25. Have you been in a mosh pit? yes..

26. What do you look for in the opposite sex? i look for a little indie rock boy, or a european accent...

27. What are your nicknames? krisa, krisa lee, aunt krisa, cappy/cap'n

28. Would you ever bungee jump? no

29. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? i wear flip flops

30. Do you think that you are strong? physically--I'm average emotionally--sometimes...

31. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? cake batter ice cream

32. What's your favorite color? blue..but to wear-green

33. What is your least favorite food? anything that is gross
34. How many wisdom teeth do you have? i don't know...come take a look

35. Are you in love with anyone? my first love...i'll always love him to some extent...

36. How many people have a crush on you right now? i don't have any real crushes right now...talk to me 2marow...

38. Do you want everyone you send this to to send it back? whatever

39. What are you wearing? a black shirt that says finish line racing acedemy, and my black skirt.
40. What are you listening to right now? um, my dad is playing some indian cd.

42. What was the last thing you ate? polish sausage, potato salad, and chips and dip

43. What is the weather right now? i don't know..go outside...
44. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone? n-dizzle fo shizzle < there are a few questions missing here>

48. Favorite alcoholic drink? um, pucker...screwdrivers...wine coolers...i don't know...

49. Favorite sports to watch? um...don't really like sports...

. 50. Eye color? brown

51. Do you wear contacts? no

52. Sibling and age? Sarah-31, Jeromie-26, julie-30

53. What is your favorite month(s)? october

54. Favorite food? Mexican

55. Last movie you watched? duplex

55. Favorite day of the year? halloween

56. Are you too shy to ask someone out? yes

57. Scary movies or happy endings?Scarry movies all the way baby!

58. Summer or winter? fall

59. Hug or kisses? both

60. Relationships or one-night stands? relationships

61. Do you want your friends to write back? we already had this question

62. Who is most likely to respond? I'm not sure

63. Who is less likely to respond? see above

. 64. What books are you reading? harry potter and the prizoner of azkaban

65. Favorite song? um...on your porch by the format, i got a date w/ the night by the yeah yeah yeahs, don't mug yourself by the streets...too many to name

66. Favorite board game? probably clue

67. What did you watch on TV last night? um...i don't think i watched tv last night...

68. Favorite smells? um...i don't know...

69. What is the first thing you think of when you
wake up in the morning? can I please go back to sleep

70. What is your greatest fear? never really having any adventures...or experiancing anything...not being happy...

71. If you could have the power to read other people's minds whenever you wanted to,
would you want it? are you kidding me? i would love that...it would make my life so much easier...

72. If you could meet anyone famous, alive or dead who would it be? um, orlando bloom...dom monaghan...god...my soul mate...

don't mug yourself....

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 02:23:54 GMT

the title of this entry is the title of my FAVORITE streets song...it's hilarious...i absolutly love it...anywho...i'm at my parents tonight...i'll be sleeping here tonight...why you ask?...cause i'm not having a good day, and i don't want to go back home...not tonight...first of all, there are about 4 billion little crawly, hoppy bugs...IN MY BED!!! i can't figure out where they came from, but i found them last night...and i had to sleep in the spare bed last night...i washed all my bedding. and vacuumed my matress...and swept...and put my fresh from the dryer bedding back on my freshly vacumed bed...and 5 minutes later there were bugs again...i can't live like this...and on top of that, sarah is driving me nuts...her life is surrounded by nolan...and that's fine, but my life doesn't have to be...plus, when she's not talking about nolan, she's telling me i don't have a real job...and telling me i need to lose weight...and telling me i need to work out...and telling me i'm lazy...so my conversations w/ her are filled w/ nolan, or her bagging on me all the time...i started crying on the way over to my parents house just thinking about it all...i'm sick of it...and i don't know what to do....i don't want to move out...but i feel like i don't want to live w/ her anymore...more on this later...i'm tired...btw, go to www.launch.com and look up the streets..and watch their videos...they are my favorite british white-guy rappers!

yellow skies...

Sun, 18 Jul 2004 03:43:59 GMT

*sigh*... i'm just really miserable...first of all, i went to my cousin's wedding...and they put a chair next to my grandpa and put a white rose in the chair in place of my grandma...and then i saw him carrying it as he left...and i almost started crying...this year has been hard on him too...and that upsets me...and now...onto my rant...and from here on out, it's confidential...cause i don't feel like the world needs to know...but you guys should...cause i want you to...

i was there...and i was unhappy...the first thing that came to my mind, was, "i wish tony was here..." i wanted to be at the wedding w/ him...and how pitifull is that? i don't even have any straight guys in my life...and my entire family won't let me forget it...and it upsets me...i am so sick of showing up w/ my parents...and i'm so sick of being the third wheel...and i'm so sick of wishing that i had someone to hold hands w/...and dance w/...and sit w/...and i want a person that i can take around to all my relatives and say, "this is my boyfriend..." i'm just sick of it all...i just want to be in love...and to have that man be in love w/ me too...cause it sucks when they don't love you back...and it makes it even worse when they turn out to be gay...when they told me shawn was gay, it destroyed me...because it took away all the hope that maybe there is a guy out there who isn't gay that can make me happy...he was the last strand of hope for me...because even though i was never with him, he had made me happy...but now i know why...because he's gay...and i will never have him...blah....i'm to tired to continue my rant...hope everyone's better than me...

somebody told me...

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 07:50:51 GMT

first of all, i know i should be sleeping right now, but i have to get this said before i either forget it, or chicken out...(and no i'm not drunk...but do keep in mind, it's 2:30am, i have been crying off and on for a large portion of the night, and i'm not wearing my glasses...) so, tonight, i realized something that i have known for a long time, but never really got it...until now...i realized that this year has been extremly hard on all of us...the transition from high school to college...losing/making friends...deaths...growing up...the realization that things have changed you in a way most people will never see or understand...

i think i started to come to terms w/ that tonight...there was a moment when the feelings of an entire year came flooding out. they started to come out in the bathroom while nicky was hanging onto me...but i was truely able to let them go and appretciate them a little bit later...and i'm glad to say i was sitting next to tony...and i'm so glad i was...because no one can understand me like he does....and i just lost it...and he just held onto me...and took care of me...and i knew i was home...

this year has been building up for so long...what with everybody leaving and coming back...my grandma's death...my aunt's death...my want to leave k.c., but the knowledge that i can't leave my friends...because tony said it best when he said your friends are the family you choose...

and i realized tonight, that it's ok to not have all your stuff together...it's ok to ask a friend for help...it's ok that i'm not perfect...and that sometimes i need to cry....and i can cry in front of my friends...and i proved that tonight...to be perfectly honest...this year has fucked me up pretty bad...and it's been so hard on me...because my friends were gone...and my family...well, i'm just not close to them like i used to be...i think it's because i've always been so close to them, that i never really got close to friends...and now, this is like fate telling me, i need to let go of my family a little...and i need to understand friendship...and i need to learn to do things w/o my family's help...if i need help, i need my friends...because this year has proved that i have a family when someone dies...but other than that, it's hard to really get us to be together...but it just makes me feel so happy when my friends (and this is the friends i'm close to, and also the ones i'm not) all tell me that if i EVER need them, they'll be there...

this year has been so hard on all of us, for many different reasons, and many of the same reasons...and as i sit here listening to the rain sparaticly fall, i know i'm gonna be ok...because my friends will get me through it...and that brings tears to my eyes again...and i'm gonna cry again...but it's just nice to know that you guys care about me....so i just need to say i love you guys more than you'll ever undestand...goodnight!

maps...

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 03:53:41 GMT

so...what's been going on w/ me lately you ask?...well, i'll tell you...so, my parents went out of town last weekend...that was FANTASTIC!! i got to see cats w/ val and nicky...it rocked my booty...i finished harry potter and the sorceror's stone, and started reading h.p.and the chamber of secrets....i found out today that i get to take over my mom's job...i start tuesday!...i finished my skirt! i'm in love! and i got to see my little heartbreaker nolan today...all in all a mulletrific past few weeks! thank you for your time! go about you buisness...

rascal king...

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 17:54:33 GMT

real quick...

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hollywood...

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 17:26:49 GMT

brace yourself...this could be kinda long...so, my computer sucks...like not just the normal sucking...it has decided that i can't use msn explorer...or internet explorer...it won't let me...so i'm now using my parents computer until i can get my dad to fix mine...(so, in reality, i'll be using this computer until i buy a new one.) i actually like this computer though...i can listen to cd's on this one...it won't save them to the playlist...but what ever...so, this morning, my dog started barking like mad at about 8:15...i was sound asleep...and he woke me up...i get up to see what he's barking at, and right as i'm getting out of bed, the doorbell rings...i don't answer it, cause i don't know who it is...i never answer the door if i don't know the person...so, the dog continues to freak out..and i'm looking out the front window, and i see my elderly neighbor is sitting in her driveway...and her husband is standing over her...i now understand...the person ringing my doorbell was trying to get help for my poor neighbor...so i called 911 and told them she fell and to send an ambulance...they did...i hope she's ok...so, now, i'm sitting here...playing on the computer...listening to one of my cranberries cd's...i love it!...and i'm trying to find this really cute fabric to finish my mom's quilt...it's this light purple...and it has white polka dots on it...it's ADORABLE!!! and i think it would be cute to use as really big blocks for the quilt...i finished my skirt...thank you very much!...it's soooooooooooooo cute!! i love it...now i just need to make myself a cute little pink shirt to go w/ it...or i could just buy one...cause all i need is like a pink tank top or something...it has to be plain...cause the skirt has a lot going on...so i don't want to overpower it...k, i think i'm done now...bye!!!

seven nation army...

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 21:16:25 GMT

well, first off, my tummy hurts...and that makes me sad...secondly, i think i'm gonna scream...i don't know why, but for some reason, our phone rings insesantly...it drives me insane!!! i think that's why i have such trouble getting on the internet...i think when i'm trying to, someone tries to call, and therefore, it won't let me get on the internet...i wish i could just disconnect the phone line so people would stop calling...but alas, that would get rid of my internet...yep...suck....so, i'm doing laundry today...i decided that my bed was getting too messy...so i need to wash it...i'm odd like that...cause i wash my bedding like once a week...but, if it gets to where the sheets are all loose, or the duvet is not in the right spot, something in my head goes off and makes me wash it all...even if it doesn't need to be washed yet...this sucks a lot, because it takes just about everything i have to put my duvet back together after i've washed it...and then it takes some more to make my bed from scratch...this silly ocd situation is matched only by one other ocd situation...my hand washing...this just came about in the past few weeks...i wash my hands CONSTANTLY! ...not only do i wash my hands after i go to the bathroom, and when they are dirty, i also wash them after i vacuum, do dishes, do laundry, eat, carry things...it's a never ending thing...and what really sucks is that this makes my hands really dry...so then i have to go put lotion on them...and 5 minutes later, i'm washing my hands again...it's crazy...oh well...bye now!